The dust seems to have finally settled somewhat and I was really feeling like I was standing on the edge of the cliff and that the fall was going to be life changing.  Essentially I feel like I have so much emotional garbage buried deep within and now is the time when it’s going to come out.  I don’t know exactly what that means or looks like.  I do know I seem to process stuff without really knowing I’m processing it.  Whatever, when it happens it will happen.  I feel like whatever needs to be released will be and when it is, my life will be infinitely better.  I feel like the dead weight that sits in the pit of my stomach and on my back will lift and I will be lighter.  Somehow I started to take another look at yoga.  I’ve never been able to get into it.  I’ve never been able to meditate or stick to trying to meditate.  I’ve barely been able to get through one yoga video in my life.  However, this time I seem to be gathering information on yoga that goes far beyond the “work out” part of it and into the spiritual part of it.  It’s mesmerizing.  I feel like the practice of yoga itself is the next big thing in my life.  That likely sounds nuts.  I’m ok with that.  It sounds kind of nuts to me too.  I feel like if I can really grasp the concept and the practice of yoga it will give me what I need to change my life, in the best possible way.  It’s exciting.

It’s exciting to know that I can decide how I respond to the events that take place in my life.  It’s exciting to know that I don’t have to always see the worst possible outcome or to get worked up over little things that don’t warrant that kind of reaction.  I love that!

So just now, I had a rare opportunity to do a little yoga as I am home alone with my twins.  They are so cute!  Instead of taking the laptop to the bedroom to do the sequence alone, I dropped down in the livingroom where they were watching a show and rolled out my mat.  The two of them came right over and wouldn’t leave me alone.  My little guy dropped down too and did the flow right along with me, beside me, on top of me.  lol  He made some of the moves a little different for me, but it was the most fun and so adorable.  How could I not love that?!